Welcome to season five! I’ve spent most of it on the floor hugging an ottoman.
Times Mulder and Scully should have made out in this week’s batch of episodes:
- Mulder can’t kill himself, because this tragedy is Scully’s now too. He’d never leave her to face it alone. Also, sharing tragedies is basically the tag line for this show.
- “Did they give Agent Scully this disease? Did they do this to her because of me?”
- “Keep going, FBI woman.”
- “Why are you sitting in my bedroom in the dark?” The usual reasons (conspiracies and very close talking).
- I love that they’re working this out together late at night in her silent apartment. Scully and Mulder are pawns in no one’s game.
- “In four years, I have shared my partner’s passionate search for the truth, and if my part has been a deception, I have never seen her integrity waver or her honor compromised.”
- When Kritschgau says that Mulder might be able to find what he wants most desperately of all, he doesn’t hesitate. “The cure for Scully’s cancer?” She’s his only thought. Remember in the pilot when all he cared about was finding out what the government was hiding?
- “Scully would’ve known.”
- “Without his partner, we may have underestimated his fragility.”
- A cure for Scully would prove that Mulder has been lied to, but he doesn’t for a second question his priorities.
- Even when Scully is “debunking” Mulder’s life’s work, she can’t describe him with anything but sympathy. He’s the victim in all of this.
- Now we know that Scully cries real tears at the THOUGHT of Mulder being dead.
- He sees her in that hospital bed and just folds. All of the air leaves him.
- Mulder smiles SO WIDELY when he sees Scully awake, and it’s more than a brave face. It’s that too, but it’s also genuine joy that he gets to talk to her.
- The tenderness with which he holds her hand and kisses her cheek, and the way she accepts it unquestioningly, is the reason I spent this episode on the floor and the next half hour listening to “I Will Follow You Into the Dark” on repeat.
- “Hey Scully, how about those Yankees, huh?” He doesn’t want her to worry about anyone but herself, but no one tells Scully not to worry about Mulder.
- He brushes the hair from her forehead multiple times in this episode, and each time I inch closer to madness.
- Scully wants to give her death meaning, and she wants to do it by saving Mulder. That’s the legacy she wants to leave.
- When Mrs. Scully comes in, Mulder doesn’t pull back or take his hand out of Scully’s. He just turns around and smiles and says, “Hi Mrs. Scully!” because it’s completely natural for them to be together like this. He’s in the family.
- More kisses. It’s like as long as he keeps holding her, she can’t go anywhere. He has to be AS CLOSE TO HER AS POSSIBLE AT ALL TIMES.
- “I think that everybody here has their heart in the right place, but I need it to be my decision.” Flawless queen.
- “If it works, I don’t care what you think she thinks.” I love that he doesn’t say, “I don’t care what you think,” or “I don’t care what she thinks.” This is Scully’s decision, and hers is the only opinion on it that actually matters.
- “Has it been worth it? To you, I mean. Have you found what you’ve been looking for?” “No.”
- “You murdered my father, you killed Scully’s sister, and if Scully dies, I will kill you.” That list is in order of importance.
- He tells her the next morning that he was lost. Mulder was lost, so he went to Scully’s bedside to hold her hand and watch her sleep.
- “Scully, I can’t let you take the blame, because of your brother, because of your mother, and because I couldn’t live with it.” The name she leaves behind matters. Mulder needs people to remember how good she is.
- He went to her with his mind made up, knowing that she’d talk him out of it if he was making a mistake.
- SHE’S AFRAID AND SHE GRABS HIS HAND AND WON’T LET GO
- “Four years ago, while working on an assignment outside the FBI mainstream, I was paired with Special Agent Dana Scully, who I believed was sent to spy on me—to debunk my investigations into the paranormal. That Agent Scully did not follow these orders is a testament to her integrity as an investigator, a scientist, and a human being.”
- Mulder’s remission smile is years younger than any expression we’ve seen on his face in a long while.
- Mulder’s old life was all paperwork and asking around for suspects and lying naked under a cardboard box yelling “They’re here!” He really needed Scully.
- “I have these weird ideas in my head that I can’t seem to shake.” “What kind of ideas?” “…Weird ones.”
- Back seat and loving life.
- Mulder bolts into the woods and Scully follows him like he’s a puppy on one of those extendable leashes. She knows he’s about to get into trouble, but he’s cute, and she likes their adventures.
- “We have communication like that: unspoken.”
- SHE COMES BEARING WINE AND CHEESE.
- Scully makes eyes at Mulder as she closes the door. She really wants him to take note of the fact that this reception is just for two.
- Scully describes this as “consorting in the same hotel room.” Guys, this is a seduction. Scully is alive, and life is for living, and hotel beds are for finally doing it with Mulder.
- He leaves because the woods are eating people. Scully is not pleased.
- “I’ll be back soon and we can build a tower of furniture. ‘Kay?”
- Scully always makes sure to color coordinate her outerwear with Mulder’s to avoid another “Darkness Falls” coat situation.
- Please never stop calling each other’s names in times of danger.
- “I was told once that the best way to regenerate body heat is to crawl naked into a sleeping bag with somebody else who was already naked.” Is this Mulder’s bedroom voice? He sounds like he’s rubbing noses with a little baby bear. I’m not complaining.
- “Maybe if it rains sleeping bags, you’ll get lucky.”
- Scully says, “When I was fighting my cancer,” and Mulder immediately gets serious.
- “I was angry at the injustice of it and its meaninglessness. And then I realized that was the struggle—to give it meaning. To make sense of it.” You two do that every day.
- “Go girl.”
- “I identified with Betty’s bustline.” “Yesssss. I did too.”
- They’re using a TV show to both deflect and bond. I’ve never felt closer to them.
- “The kids were cute.” “But where are they today?”
- More deflecting.
- He wants a lullaby.
- “Mulder, you never left my sight.”
- “Too bad we don’t have any office furniture.”
“The Post-Modern Prometheus”
- Mulder’s reputation is so weird, and Scully is so into it.
- Scully and Mulder have a long discussion in hushed tones about the psychology behind monsters. That’s a dream date for both of them.
- Not gazing.
- Every time Mulder and Scully roll their eyes in unison, an angel gets its wings.
- Professional sleuths, on the case.
- A modest proposal.
- Scully looks DELIGHTED that Mulder is asking her to dance. I love that he can’t look her in the eyes. He wants to be gallant, but five years later, he’s still so bashful and in awe of his partner.
- They are both SO PLEASED that this is happening. It’s totally new but completely natural.
- Is Mulder wearing a stocking cap?
- Scully can’t talk to Mulder because she’s already thinking about adoption, and she knows what that might do to their partnership.
- She doesn’t give up on this girl, and she doesn’t dismiss what’s happening just because it’s hard to believe. She really is thinking like Mulder. “Sounds like something that partner of yours would say.”
- “To be honest, I’ve started to question my priorities since I was first diagnosed with cancer. I feel like I was given a second chance. Ever since I was a child, I’ve never allowed myself to get too close to people. I’ve avoided emotional attachments. Perhaps I’ve been so afraid of death and dying that any connection just seemed like a bad thing, something that wouldn’t last. But I don’t feel that anymore.” This is why Scully’s never let anything happen with Mulder before. This is also why the connection she already has with him is so rare, and it’s why she’s ready to consider what that means.
- “You don’t know who you’re going to meet when you join the FBI. You don’t know how your life is going to change or how you’re going to change the life of others.” [i.e. MULDER]
- Scully’s nightmare is to be alone, on a path that she doesn’t choose and that shows her nothing about herself. She didn’t choose this, but at least she doesn’t have to be alone.
- This man is our country’s first line of defense.
- Mulder is staring at a family that is and isn’t his. He didn’t picture it happening like this, but he’ll take it, if Scully will let him.
- Mulder is Scully’s witness, which is accurate on so many levels.
- “I never want to see you hurt or harmed in any way.”
- He’s calling her Dana again. I’m never emotionally prepared for that.
- “The fact that she can adopt this child, her own flesh and blood, is something I don’t feel I have the right to question and I don’t believe anyone has the right to stand in the way of.” Good boy, Mulder.
- They’re so domestic right now.
- “Are you two the parents?”
- Mulder defends Emily like he’s the parent. “I want everything to help that little girl.”
- “I’ll stay with you.”
- She still doesn’t have to be alone.
- “You found her, and you had a chance to love her. Maybe she was meant for that too.”
- It’s hot the way they lead the charge in the investigation.
- Mulder nods at Scully before answering the phone, and when she tells him to hang up, he listens to her. He needs something to put his back up against.
- It’s not his fault that he’s so popular in the serial killer community.
- “Well, why wait when it’s true love? You never know how long you have.” “No, you don’t.” Oh they’re BOTH thinking about their priorities now.
- He’s making the same face he made by Scully’s hospital bedside, and that’s not even a little bit okay.
- “She knows you’ll never forgive yourself.” The way to get at Scully and Mulder is thorugh each other, and they both know it.
- I love the way she says “Mulder?” like she’s calling him back to her.
- Mulder is the only reason they caught the killer, but he feels like he lost, because he aimed a gun at Scully. That’s never a good day.
- Dead guy was buried alive in mud, but please, carry on with your eye sex.
- “Some rain storm.” “They say it rained 400 inches a day.” WHY ARE YOU SO INTIMATE RIGHT NOW
- He loves it when Scully tries to make science happen.
- So much gazing today.
- “Hey Scully, is this demonstration of boyish agility turning you on at all?”
- Spot the butt grab.
Maybe eventually, Scully and Mulder will get a room. And not for stacking furniture this time.
Until next week!